Music to make you ponder

Croatian Rhapsody as rendered by Maksim Mrvica

I usually enjoy Trance, Dance, Techno and Gym(those that get you going in the gym) music... I find these types of music really uplifting and often times i get a certain drive from listening to this stuff.

I enjoy FOB, MCR etc during commutes because of the profound yet not too disturbing way (at least according to my standards) they deliver their message - Perhaps this is because is share their pains. (I don't eve know what genre their music belongs to- I'ts a casual thing)

However, I also am a fan of some Classical renditions (yeah particularly this one). This type of music on the other hand gives me the subtle change of mood to start reflecting and realizing day to day or even chronologically remote events that have transpired.

This particular post is dedicated to the Classical sideof my "musical taste". This particular piece is one of the more influential mp3 files that gets my brain on its feet especially when thinking about philosophy and life as I've lived it and will live it in general.

I feel like I'm in a roller coaster gliding over memories of me from way back to far in the future. I imagine myself as that particular sperm cell that got in that particular egg cell, I imagine the cell division, the forming of limbs etc, I imagine my birth, my upbringing as a little boy, our old neighborhood where I frequently ran and play - where I frequently wounded my knee because of bad falls.

I imagine the first day I went to school, the way my mom hid behind the corner just to give me the impression that I was alone. I remember my teachers, my classmates albeit no longer their full names but their warm or otherwise mean remarks... I remember High school, my friends, my graduation....

I remember my first day in college, my friends my subjects,

Then I come to realize the point where I am now..... Then I imagine things about the future. Graduation, Work, relationships, family, retirement, growing old, travelling, My internment, decomposition and ultimately being food to those belonging to the lower levels of the food chain...

Haha, I am beginning to doubt myself about these thoughts and I wonder.... Am i eccentric for having thought of these things? :D

For those of you who have time to listen, do download it and try to listen to it.

Try to listen... and tell me what you think.. :)

Friends vs Homies

From Urban Dictionary

Friends: Never asks for anything to eat or drink Homies: Help themselves and are the reason why I have no food Friends: Would bail you out of jail Homies: would be sitting next to you sayin' "THAT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!! Lets do it again!" Friends: Won't laugh at you. Homies: Will embarrass your Ass when everyone is around! Friends: Has never seen you cry Homies: Won't tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in privately when your not still down. Friends: Asks you to write down your number. Homies: Have you on speed dial Friends: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back. Homies: Loses your shit and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue." Friends: Only knows a few things about you Homies: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story... Friends: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing Homies: Will kick the ASS of the enitre crowd that left you. Friends: Would knock on your front door Homies: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME" Friends: Know some of your embarrassing moments... Homies: Are next to you making them! Friends: You have to tell them not to tell anyone Homies: They already know not to tell... Friends: Are only through highschool Homies: They are for life Friends: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you've had enough Homies: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste good shit!" Friends: Will leave you in a ditch Homies: Will drag you out of the ditch and laugh at your ASS later!

-.- (non intellectual) hehe

Me: Weird ah. I feel that this is not our usual.
Person: Usual kaya to.
Me: I feel na wala na ung affinity
...
Me: Not one drop of warm friendship left?
Person: Nope.

-.- sad. What do you make of that people?

Evrything is one...

This may not make sense at first but after careful consideration of flowing thoughts in my mind, I have arrived at a belief that evrything we do, say, is one.

Take this for an example.

The color black is defined to be the absence of all colors while the color white is defined to be the presence of all colors. (forgive the "facts" for purposes of illustration) If not for the comparison between colors, woud there have been any color to judge at all? Imagine a world filled with just "blackness"... Without the white to actually differentiate the black as a distinct state, then the color of interest ceases to exist.

What this entails is that there is only one reality with different contexts wherein it may be interpreted.

Take two course cards for exmaple. One bearing a 4.0 and another carrying a 0.0 . If we are not keen enough to actually examine the articulations of these two course cards, we may be led into believing that what they carry are two disparate grades showing edges and contrasting each other when in fact, they may be showing the same amount of effort by two distinct students.

The 4.0 may have been effected by just the same effort to effect the 0.0 thi smay be due to the professor, emotional, financial and whatever constraints that may have influenced the duratrion of the earning of these particular grades.

After these (in)appropriate examples.. All i wanna say is that whether we say yes, no, maybe in whatever degree we can possibly do, we mean the same thing. This however is yet to be known. Lol... perhaps after a lifetime of fruitless pursuit for the unknown, i'll be able to at least share a speck of knwledge to you peers :)

tc till my next post... (Looooooooooong time... ) LOL

Not so Intellectual...

When people try to impress others/(me) with words, the least I could do is shrug a cold sholder and try to appease myself against the thought of walking right out of his speech. I wonder what fecundity these creatures have been blessed with that they/(we) seem to have proliferated the entire earth.

If it is just for the heat of the moment that these people/(I) use this seemingly effective interjection of blurting out unthought of remarks, I really feel that they/(I) should just refrain and restrain myself from crapping noob conversationlalists of the associated disappointments.

Trust

I believe that one of the most basic building blocks of humanity is trust, trust that is ever evolving, trust that is susceptible to the harsh elements of reality.

When one is taken out of his mother’s womb, the instinct is that for the infant to trust the mother because of the protection and nurture it gets from her. This is what I like to call trust attributed to instinct. This type of trust is of course helpful to the infant but not to the mother (a speculation). It is primarily a one way trust wherein one is trusted because of the benefits the other avails from that person.

Another type of trust is a trust between good friends. I like to call this mutual trust. This type of trust in contrast to the aforementioned is a two way relationship. A concrete example may be the trust person A has for person B in a group wherein A is confident that B won’t do anything to embarrass or derogate him. This can also be observed between friends wherein one watches over the other and keeps the other’s ass out of trouble. This trust is beneficial to both parties and is healthy (a speculation) in the process of becoming a better person.

Yet another type of trust is observed between a God (in today’s sense) and a believer. This I like to call, Blind trust. Some argue that this type of trust is just a pacifier for man’s insecurities. Some say that this is the superior type because of certain unconditional aspects of such a relationship.

Trust is also one of the most basic needs of man. He needs to be secure in his peer group, society and in his own self. Deprive him on one of the aspects of this need and he falls like a crying baby to the abyss of grave insecurity.

As this entry comes to a close, I would like to extend my hand to those who are deprived of the privilege of having type 2 and 3(I can’t do much with a lack of type 1). I’ve been a frequent “shoulder-to-lean-on-seeker” myself and I find that this can be very frustrating, draining and degrading.

As for those on the other side of the fence, you “trust-breakers” … I’d rather keep my mouth shut :)

Current thoughts... an hour put to waste

Just felt like writing...

Grant me O Lord whatever you please

Impart on me O Lord enough acumen to advance my thinking
but not to an extent that i will go blinking

Provide me shelter to ensure my well being
but not so that I may brag a single thing

Grant me O God enough material wealth so that I may live a decent and dignified life
but let me not accumulate more than what I can slave

Shower me with your providence in every aspect
but not to the point that You'd loose my respect

Bless me with a number of loyal, grateful friends
but grant that I may not find any one of them a mortal fiend

Bestow on me the gift of reasoning, the gift of logic to easy my mundane brain's misery
but leave space for your mighty tonic of mystery

Most importantly...

Make me understand Lord what I do not.
Allow me to discern your real purpose in bringing me into this seemingly bland existence...
else cease my thirst for an answer and settle me into nihilism instead...

*God/Lord references no particular supreme being.

What is real?

Take for instance the computer screen you use to view this very write-up. How do you know that it is in fact real? How do you ascertain whether an event, a being, a feeling is real? Is it physical presence? Or perhaps logical soundness for the more intellectually conscious of us.

What is it that differentiates our imagination from reality? If one answers a particular phrase or quotes a particular definition, that very same person will surely be able to supply a counter argument if only he’d open up his views regarding the matter.

Are we real? Or are we simply products of our very own imagination. Is God real? How do we know? We have never seen him nor talked to him amongst other things. Love, Friendship, Hope, are all these emotions really existent? How do we know?

In a world of arbitrary proportions, no one can actually define reality. We settle for a primitive, closed minded approach to reality. That is, we take for granted those beyond our league and simply dismiss the fact that there is actuality beyond what we think is actual.

Bottom Line: Think outside the box! Think Big! Just because they say so doesn’t make their saying a saying unless you kiss their asses.

I hope you guys understood my point :D I just want to share my thoughts with you peers :D